The Joke's On You

A very merry unbirthday

Lucy Ochidia — Thu, 18 Feb 2010 21:07:00 +0000

Bobby is coming over any minute for some afternoon delight. I have no clue what made him decide he wanted me at 2 o’clock in the afternoon on a thurday but hey… I’m not complaining. I’m on my period so I just agreed to give him a birthday blowjob seeing as he turns 21 tomorrow.

I got rejected from the apartment that I applied for because I didn’t have a recent pay stub. I went in yesterday and gave him one and told me that he was going to make sure that I got the apartment. I think he really liked me because he just called me back and told me I got the place. I’m so excited. My dad is coming on the 27th to come help me move. Bobby is also coming to help me move. I tell my dad everything so he knows about bobby. This should be interesting to say the least. I told my dad to please not say anything inappropriate and have a little but of tact.

Thought I had it all figured out.

Lucy Ochidia — Tue, 16 Feb 2010 08:55:49 +0000

But I don’t. Bobby is the reason I have a sleeping disorder. He is where all my problems stem from. He came into work today to drop off Tasha’s keys with me and he told me about his valentines day. He went on a date with a girl from school and he said he had a wonderful time. He said that she’s a really nice girl, not the type of girl he’d want to piece right away. That made me wonder, if he didn’t want to get with her right away because she’s a nice girl then what the fuck does that make me? After their date she said she was to bagged to drive home so he told her to stay at his place and they cuddled all night. Why the fuck would he tell me that? He must absolutely no respect for me because I wanted to fuck him the minute I met him. That frustrates me. I am trying to be his friend but I don’t think I can if he thinks so little of me. Last time we slept together I asked him if he had valentines day plans and he said he didn’t and he hated valentines day because it’s a shitty day to be single. I told him that I agreed and that’s why I thought we could both use a little companionship on that day and we should do something. he said maybe and that took this girl from school out instead. I’m terrified that if I have a sleeping disorder now then what is it going to be like when I’m actually alone? I texted him tonight after he left hoping that I would find out what he really thought of me and I said “all this talk about good girls…what the fuck does that make me?” He thought I was joking and replied with ” You’re a terrible person a seal clubbing succubus lol” so I said “Hmmm, I see. What are you doing right now? Can you come over and talk to me?” I think he thought I wanted to fuck and that’s why I was asking him to come over. He said “lol”. It’s seems to be that way a lot lately. It’s annoying that I’m trying to be his friend but every time I ask him to hang out he automatically thinks that means I want to get down. So next time I see him I need to make myself clear that I want to be his friend but it’s not going to work if he thinks that I’m just a benefits. Not even a friend with them. Life gets so complicated when you actually start liking someone rather then just wanting to blow them. And even more so when its more of the latter then the former.

Whats love got to do with it?

Lucy Ochidia — Fri, 12 Feb 2010 00:34:43 +0000

So after the birthday party Bobby came over and Cody went to Tasha’s. It was a lot of fun. Every time I fuck Bobby I realize how screwed up about women he is. He’s really comfortable with me so every time in our post coital glow he opens up and starts telling me about all his issues with women and all about his past girlfriends/flings. It’s like a fucking therapy session. I think this last time was what solidified it for me that I don’t want a real relationship with him. The longer I go with out sex the more I think that I would like to work something out with him, but then I fuck him again and that feeling disappears. He’s getting way to comfortable around me. This last time he peed in my shower and used my deodorant.

Adolfo wanted to come over and chill with me. I’m contemplating letting him give me some face and getting him to take out my garbage when he leaves. This boy has so many notches on his belt that it’s barely there anymore. That’s a huge turn off and I don’t think I would let him put his dick in me. God knows what I would get. But getting a little face wouldn’t be to bad. I don’t know how happy he’s going to be when he realizes that I’m not down to reciprocate. I prefer the word opportunist rather then slut.

Bobby is driving Tasha to the airport tomorrow in her car and I think I’m going to give him some company on the ride home. Either way I’m going to get a piece. If I don’t go along with them he still has to come over and drop off her keys with me and pick up his shirt and watch that he left here last time.

I’m super stressed with trying to find a place to live by the end of the month. I have a couple condos to go look at this week but time is running out. I am super strapped for cash to so I really hope I can even afford to move into a nice looking place. I’m thinking about moving right downtown into a high rise. Lots of traffic and easy to get around, Having everything right out my front door will be a bonus.

Follow me down to the valley below

Lucy Ochidia — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 22:37:43 +0000

So I think it’s over for reals between me and Bobby. I’m done playing his games. I’m going to a birthday party on saturday and I have to drive Tasha’s drunk ass around again. I don’t even have my license yet and I’m terrified of driving. She’s been taking advantage of the fact that I gave up drinking and doing a lot of it herself and making me cart her around. I don’t mind though. Gives me more experience and makes me less nervous. My mom is giving me her china set and she just sent me a gift certificate to superstore. I love her. She’s so good to me. I’m actually kind of looking forward to not having a roommate. It’s going to be hard but I think it’ll be worth it. I’m going for sushi tonight with Tyrone. I desperately need to do my dishes and clean my house but lately I’ve been feeling so lethargic and worn out and I don’t know why.

Single

Lucy Ochidia — Wed, 03 Feb 2010 07:18:32 +0000

It’s past midnight and I’m eating lucky charms and researching how to control my gag reflex. It’s times like these that I love living alone.

Fuckers

Lucy Ochidia — Mon, 01 Feb 2010 19:55:25 +0000

Tasha bailed on me because she doesn’t want to ruin our friendship. So now I put in my notice here and I have to be out by the end of the month. I guess I’m moving by myself and getting 2 jobs for the summer and the going back to school part time. Fuck. This sucks. I hate this.

He was just kidding, I’m sure you’re tight

Lucy Ochidia — Sat, 30 Jan 2010 10:16:33 +0000

I”m drunk

Hot tubbing with Kylie

Moving on

Lucy Ochidia — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 04:19:15 +0000

The townhouse that me and Tasha went and looked at was a 3 bedroom and there was another girl thinking about moving in with us. When she saw the size of the bedrooms she was very turned off and said she had to think about it. Me and Tasha immediately gave up on her and decided that we weren’t even going to wait for her answer before we started looking for a place by ourselves. She was thinking about moving into a place that her froend all ready has and I was kinda stressed that she would leave me high and dry but she decided that for how much it cost it wasn’t worth it. So we have an appointment tomorrow to go look at a 2 bedroom condo on the west side and if we do get that place we’re going to transfer to the west side restaurant.

I texted Bobby after I got off work. I sent him a picture of me in my underwear laying down and said this is where I want you. How do you feel about that? he hasn’t texted me back so i guess I’ll find out later how he feels about it. I plan on ending the whole thing with him if he comes over tonight. It’s just getting to stressful hearing everyone say that we’re meant for each other and starting to believe it myself and having him not feel it. Also I don’t like feeling like I owe him exclusivity even though we aren’t dating and I have no idea if he’s being exclusive with me. I don’t like feeling obligated to someone. Like I said before I want the companionship of a relationship and the regular sex but without the obligation towards each other. I have no clue how he’s going to react to this but I hope he comes over tonight… I plan on telling him after he gives me some face.

We are painters

Lucy Ochidia — Tue, 26 Jan 2010 16:34:16 +0000

Dallen hasn’t talked to me since our date. I’m very pleased with that… but neither has Bobby… Before last night he wasn’t replying to my texts and he was just being really cold. I texted him last night and told him I am moving at the end of february and he didn’t text me back. I was super pissed off and I spent the whole night in a state of longing and incredibly horny. All I could think about was fucking him. Then at 2 in the morning he texted me back…

Me: I’m moving at the end of february :D

Bobby: Neato, movin in with build-a-bear guy?

Sorry for long response time; working out, hope you are still up

Me: No he wasn’t interested lol. I’m moving into a townhouse with Tasha. Is it terrible that it’s 2 in the morning on a tuesday and all I can think about is fucking you and all the terrible things I would do to you right now?

Bobby: That is terrible, you are a bad girl, I would punish you if I was there

Me: Oh? what would this punishment entail?

Bobby: Manhandling, perhaps screaming. I would give you what you deserve ;)

Me: To bad you aren’t here. I’m sure you’d straighten me out. What are you doing wednesday evening/thursday morning?

Bobby: Not sure, I don’t like staying up late anymore.

Me:Well I was hoping we could get naked and play chess but I don’t want to interfere with your bed time…

Bobby: Lol, we’ll see how the night goes. Ttyl, too late, cant believe im up

Me: Good night sleep well

Ya I’m pulling out of my lease early and moving into a townhouse with Tasha and one other girl. Its going to be super cheap rent. I’m excited I’ll be able to save lots and lots of money for school.

Sweet Jesus

Lucy Ochidia — Tue, 19 Jan 2010 18:04:40 +0000

The transit system just called me and told me my wallet had been turned in and the money is still in it. There is some honest people in the world after all.